WOW!

What a difference a few days makes! My hubby lost his job, and we're moving back home to Kansas. Whoopeeee!!

Don't get me wrong. I'm not happy he lost his job, but I can't wait to get back home! I like the people here in Killeen, but I didn't realize how homesick I was until there was a chance for us to go back home. Things will be difficult, and after the move I might not post for a while because I'll be looking for a job and trying to get unpacked, etc. There has been so many changes to our family in the past few years, I'm hoping things settle down for a while so I can catch my breath. I'm hoping to post a couple of times before we leave, to journal the last few days before we're outta here. We're set to move the 30th of March.

Fall Forward, Spring Back

I have to remind myself lately that life
is more than piling dishes, paying bills, doing duties.
I turn around, I blink, I stare too long
at that clown-shaped cloud,
and the years have flown, my little girl grown,
my baby boy, a stubble-chinned youth, and I
can’t remember what it was like to see the future
without first counting the mistakes
of my past, as if counting them
makes them count today.
Squinting with miasmic eyes, I attempt to scan the sky,
to assume some form of foresight.
I can just make out the beginning of the end, and I realize
on that far horizon could reside my fate.
Rather I’ll watch rapt as the bozo cloud
metamorphoses into a bunny rabbit,
pay close attention
to that floating changing opening of the heavens
that allows the sun to momentarily blind me--
that illuminates my way.

--Nan Whetstone